It’s been a year, bois, it’s definitely been a year. Now I know most people will be talking about the ‘rona in their recaps but it impacted me pretty minimally, so I don’t have much to say about it.
Instead I’ll talk about all the adventures this year brought, going month by month!
January
January was wack. In fact most of my year was wack. I was still really struggling with my health and throughout the entire year we kept searching for treatment for it. The constant trial and error throughout the entire year was a discouraging process, but your girl ain’t one to quit.
Like everything in life, January wasn’t entirely bad, of course. Some highlights:
- I got contacts for the first time! Glasses who? Frames what? (Yes I was trying frames in this pic XD) Let’s not talk about the fact that I’m terrible at taking my contacts out every night like I’m supposed to.
- Traveling to my favorite natural doctor place
- Seeing a new doctor
- Fasting for 21 days
- Discovering beautiful new music and daydreaming of better times
- Roleplaying with my buddy Josie
- Eating at IHOP
- Eating lots of sweet tea and bagels
- Read more here: My Morning Routine January 2020 ♥
Some of my favorite music/artists from January:
- Lots of Tauren Wells
- Blind by Built By Titan
- Overtime by Dj Em D
- Us by Jenna Raine
February
- Driving like 45 min away to eat lunch somewhere cool
- New music, swinging and daydreaming of better days
- Valentine’s Day at a restaurant my family loves but I can’t stand :’)
- Doing a fun photoshoot outside
- Doing hyperbaric oxygen chamber therapy while watching Ninjago
- Me and my brother’s hilarious tradition every February 29th
- Watching the Descendants movies
Some of my favorite music/artists from February:
- Lose My Mind by Elation (we all thought it was by my brother’s friend but it turned out not to be so I don’t listen to it anymore, I didn’t realize it was secular)
- Your Voice by We Are Leo
- Poco a Poco by Carmen Justice (one of my FAVES which she recently deleted from the entire internet!!!! *sobs*)
- Flaming Arrows by Carmen Justice
March
March started looking up! In fact it was the best month of the year up to this point.
- Inside jokes with my sibs from the Descendants movies and soundtrack and doing math together XD
- God supernaturally provided the money for me to be mentored by a famous author, and I knew that was a sign I should start writing again, even if my health wasn’t perfect; and actually, doing so made my life a little better!
- Was too controversial on a popular platform I helped contribute to so I was very quickly made unwelcome :’)
- Started making music on GarageBand (see my first song here!)
- FaceTiming my best friends to tell them the hilarious story of a Muslim crushing on me while driving to go pick up food even with the ton of Covid rules
Some of my favorite music/artists from March:
- Descendants soundtrack, of course
- Quarter-Life Crisis album by Carmen Justice
- Flaming Arrows album by Carmen Justice
- Go Off by Zauntee
- All in the Moment by Zauntee
- Jaisua
April
April was better than March. Throughout all this time we’ve been trying different treatment for my health issues, by the way, through tedious trial and error. None of them were really working, but good things still happened.
- Camp NaNoWriMo with my online friends I got to know better through Discord! Now we chat every single day, chaotic trio for the win
- I would write outside on our lanai, at our patio table with my laptop and huge headphones, just working on my antagonist’s character arc
- Baked cookies with my brother
- Hilarious stonks memes I discovered and started making
- Posted a few times on my ministry blog
- Making more music
- All my quarantine adventures
- My brother’s birthday party; we were in quarantine so it had to be at home but it was still plenty fun and we played with some random neighborhood cat
Some of my favorite music/artists from April:
- Jaisua
- Heathen album by GAWVI
- EXIT album by Wande
- Unite album by 1GN
- Britt Nicole album by Britt Nicole
- Make It by Carmen Justice & Simple Thieves
- Loud by Carmen Justice
May
May wasn’t as great as April. The trial and error process of figuring out what treatment would work was discouraging. We saw a few different doctors here. But life always has its good moments.
- Hilarious and fun Discord conversations and my usernames and profile pics were all ninja themed
- Cutting my hair short
- Chilling in the pool with my dad and brother
- Making more music
- Taking this fun photoshoot
Some of my favorite music/artists from May:
- More Wande
- More 1 Girl Nation
- Lecrae
- Retro Mars, Swedish Revolution & LoudWorship
- Snapshot (feat. JSteph) by Matthew Parker
- Confidence by Spencer Kane & Nic D
- More by Holly Starr
- Breakthrough by Eddie James
- Amazing Grace by LZ7
- 1K Phew
June
June got worse. More frustration with the trial and error process of finding the right treatment.
But…
- I worked a lot on my novel’s scene outline with sweet tea
- Ate lots of candy (whyyy??? XD)
- Ate lots of chocolate chip pancakes (from the freezer section…)
- I turned 17 and went to one of my favorite restaurants!
Some of my favorite music/artists from June:
- LZ7
- Lars La Ville
- GIDI
July
Things were better than June, at least! I sought new treatment and started trying it out.
- Doing a little Camp NaNo (before feeling too unwell) and coming across a GREAT idea and feeling full of inspiration
- Fourth of July celebration service at my church
- Going to the beach with my brother and his friend
- Meeting up with one of my best online friends
Some of my favorite music/artists from July:
- Crazy by Phil J
- Sound of the Weekend by LZ7
- Bruises by Holly Starr
- Umbrella by Holly Starr
- Human (feat. Matthew Parker) by Holly Starr
- Wildflower by Matthew Parker
- Younger Days album by Galactus Jack
- Universal album by Galactus Jack
August
New treatment was going really rough. I just didn’t really understand it and it felt too hard and overwhelming to apply. I tried, though.
- Got another haircut (a bit too short this time, but it grew XD)
- Went with my youth group to the beach
- Went to my friend’s birthday party
- Ate lots of Cheesecake Factory fettuccine Alfredo and chocolate cheesecake
Some of my favorite music/artists from August:
- Rapture Ruckus
- Darling by Matthew Parker (I attended his livestream for this and had a GREAT time!)
- Alory
- Now and Then: 2010-2020 album by Galactus Jack
September
GUYS. GUYS. GUYS GUYS GUYS. WE FOUND A TREATMENT WITH THE HIGHEST SUCCESS RATE.
I tried it.
AND IT STARTED WORKING. I WAS SO HAPPY.
People who go through it say it’s the hardest thing they’ve ever gone through in their entire lives. And they are 100000% right. It’s already been the hardest thing I’ve ever done in my entire life, and I’ve barely started it!
BUT IT STARTED WORKING AND I FELT HOPE.
Therefore September was MUCH better than the previous sucky months! I laughed again. I enjoyed my days again. My sense of humor came back!
Now life was still NOT a bed of roses. Far from perfect, far from how good I used to feel. This therapy is literally the hardest thing I’ve ever had to do in my entire life, and temporarily makes you feel worse before you feel better.
But after a few days of putting in the excruciating effort, I started seeing results!
Progress is not linear by any means; I have good days and bad days and great moments and terrible moments, but dude, I used to have very few good moments.
- I went to the doctor for persistent toenail trouble I’d been having for over a year and a half, don’t ask XD
- As part of therapy, I picked up an activity to busy myself with, and I chose crafting things for my friends! I made tons of bracelets and put together a lot of cute little gift packages to send to online friends and pen pals.
- Watched Charlotte’s Web with my fam
- Lots of delicious chai tea, perfect for fall
- I had hilarious conversations and voice calls on a Discord server I moderate (my sense of humor was coming back and I laughed sooooo hard)
- I participated in a music video for my favorite artist AND I GOT IN! Go see if you can spot me: I’m the girl with short brown hair in a yellow shirt and I show up twice! I attended the livestream for this event and also had a great time; my other online bestie got in the video as well and we just had crazy humorous moments in the IG live chat XD
- I got invited to my favorite artist’s IG group chat and Discord server! YEEEEEE
- Became co-owner on a Discord server I moderate
- I went to the movies with my brother and Dad
- I made this post
- Discovered tomato soup and crackers which was delish
Some of my favorite music/artists from September:
- Lead Me Home (Remix) by Matthew Parker, Jaisua, and JSteph
- Alive (Remix) by NONAH & Matthew Parker
- Bloodstream – Single by Matthew Parker (that’s song for the music video I got into!)
- Libre by KB
- Let it Reign by KB
- We Right Here by KB
- Don’t Need Perfect by Xander Sallows
- Thank God I’m Alive (Remix) by Manic Drive & Matthew Parker
- Vip album by Manic Drive
- Echo – Instrumental Version by Lance Conrad from audioblocks.com
- Skywards Instrumental by Will Van De Crommert from audioblocks.com
October
Therapy started getting rocky. It’s the hardest thing I’ve ever had to do, after all, and I was going off of a self-help book with no therapist. But I still had a good month!
- Roleplaying with my best online buddies while Fortnite default dancing down the Publix aisle
- Eating gluten-free chocolate mug cakes
- Watching Last Man Standing with my family
- Going to a prayer meeting at church
- Driving around town on my parent’s anniversary putting up signs for our presidential candidate
- More hilarious moments and memes and jokes on the Discord server I moderate
- I became moderator on a HUGE server — 2,000+ members — through a hilarious turn of events were the moderators were being unfair to me so I left and wrote a negative review, then the owner contacted me and made things right, then literally asked me to apply for staff and I became mod right away
- However that was short-lived as the owner decided to break Discord’s Terms of Service which led to the entire server going INSANE, all the staff except me and one other person leaving, and that other person contributed to the chaos and I didn’t outrank him so I couldn’t stop him and it was literally just insane and then new owners completely nuked it XD
- My hair had finally grown to the length I wanted it so I went to our church’s campmeeting looking fab *flips hair*
- I went to my brother’s black belt test with his friends and we went out to celebrate!
- HALLOWEEN WAS AMAZING. No we don’t celebrate Halloween but we had the most amazing day; we went out to lunch (Chick-fil-A!) and shopped then binge-watched The Mandalorian as a family and I kept spilling things everywhere as I yeeted up from the couch when the doorbell rang to give kids fruit snacks and Dove chocolates (rip my candy).
Picture of me and my cute straightened hair, finally the length I wanted, before we went to a conference at church. I was pointing to a sign in our yard.
Some of my favorite music/artists from October:
- Chapter in My Story by KALEIN & J.Steph
- Pray for You (Remix) by Matthew Parker & Micah Ariss
- Won’t Run Out by LZ7
- Sailboat by Matthew Parker
- It’s The Most Wonderful Time of the Year by Matthew Parker
- Interlude by Attack! Attack! (this was actually discovered in February 2017 but I was absorbing myself in February 2017 vibes a lot)
- 5 Minute Adrenaline Countdown (same situation as above XD)
- Like Myself by Elizabeth Grace
- Chasing Quiet by Elizabeth Grace
- Mad Today by Hulvey
- Ready or Not by Hulvey
- Dreamworld by Chris Howland & Matthew Parker
- Kill My Vibe by Bad Party Heroes
November
NOVEMBER WAS THE HOLY GRAIL OF MONTHS OH MY GOODNESS. I was really working hard on applying the therapy.
I recapped the whole month here, but a quick recap here as well:
- Staying up to watch the election while VCing with Discord friends and eating snacks
- Watching lots of movies with my family <3
- Working on my novel for the first time in a long time as part of therapy <3
- NOVEMBER VACA HJKLSFSAD,FJKDSLK
- My sibs and I bonding over our mutual love for The Legend of Zelda games and their soundtrack remixes
- Thanksgiving and posting this post
- Black Friday shopping
- Lots of ramen noodles and gatorade
- My buddy and I had matching Picrew profile pics on Discord of our novel protagonists
- My self-help therapy was going okay, but I was stuck and needed guidance. So we made the best decision of the year and decided to go with the experts in my condition. They are the creme de la creme in this field, and before I even met with my new therapist, I started applying their tips to the therapy I was doing, and have been getting better results!
- All of this made me once again enthralled with the beauty of life because the therapy was working and I was starting to enjoy things again. <3
Some of my favorite music/artists from November:
- Kill My Vibe by Bad Party Heroes
- Celtic Trap on Audioblocks.com
- Montaña by Evan Craft, Sam Rivera, & GAWVI
- Renegade by Sam Rivera & Spencer Kane
- Superhero by Matthew Parker
- Showtime and Winning by Zauntee
- Severely by Xander Sallows & Ben Lawrence
- Sweatband by FF5
- Put On Your Sunday Clothes by Hello, Dolly! (1969 movie soundtrack)
- Lost Woods Trap Remix (YouTube)
- Breath of the Wild CG5 Trap Remix (YouTube)
- Song of Storms Trap Remix (YouTube)
- Song of Time Trap Remix (YouTube)
- We Three Kings and God Rest Ye Merry Gentlemen by Tommee Profitt
- We 3 Kings by Matthew Parker
- The Very Best by Francesca Battistelli
- Lioness by Beckah Shae
December
*cries because THIS MONTH WAS AMAZING TOO, DUDES*
This recap will be longer than the others because aghhh December just had so many fun moments!!!
I was part of my new doctors’ app support community and learning more about their approach to the therapy. I was applying it and (again, emphasizing that it’s no walk in the park to apply!) STARTED FEELING BETTER THAN I HAVE ALL YEAR sometimes. And that’s before I even saw my new therapist!
So then I saw my new therapist for the first time! Although things were rocky at first, and even now as I’m still figuring out everything involved, I’m still applying the therapy, and am feeling better than I did months ago, at least!
We decorated for Christmas!
I worked on accessories on my ninja outfit!
Then I made cards and Christmas packages for my besties!
I baked chocolate chip cookies and did not care a wink about the possibility of E. coli as I ate the dough by the spoonful.
Did my ninja photoshoot!
I drank hot chocolate with my friends at church (no one told us it was only free before and after the service, not during, so I had to pay XD) at their winter event!
At the winter event there was fake snow, a HUGE Christmas tree made out of lights, I saw old friends, and met someone new!
Isn’t our Christmas tree so pretty and dude look at my presents >:)
Christmas vacation started and it was awesome. We watched lots of fun movies (including Beyond the Mask, the Night at the Museum trilogy, and the Left Behind movies), ate a ton of absolutely delicious gluten-laden holiday food (rip my gut), and stayed up late laughing hysterically and making a ton of inside jokes.
One time at 2 AM my brother saw one of my old dolls staring at him from the top of my closet shelf, so that started a war with the “demonic doll” where we would constantly put it in places to surprise each other. I put it into his bed and he FREAKED out — he’s a black belt in MMA so with his instincts he grabbed her neck and prepared to punch her face ._.
Then, as you can see in the picture above, he attached her to my ceiling fan and even attached one of my origami kunai knives to her hand (it fell off so I didn’t see). ?
I went with my friends (after we got Chick-fil-A!) to Busch Gardens to ride roller coasters while the entire park was decked out all Christmasy. This completely random girl joined our group and rode with us for half the time XD
I didn’t realize until I was dangling 400 feet in the air that I was wearing two completely different shoes the entire time… :’)
Afterwards we got crappy hot cocoa from McDonald’s and dropped my friend off at her house after petting her dog who was mad at us for some reason. :’)
We cooked silver turtles over a firepit one night and my brother and I gave each other super fast and fun rides in a wheelbarrow.
To give you a glimpse at my brother’s personality, he rolled me toward the fire chanting “Sacrifice! Sacrifice!” ??
I didn’t have a picture of the dinner we ate, but I took this picture of a huge bush blocking my room window. So here. XD
A pic of delicious peppermint ice cream and whipped cream while we watched the classic It’s A Wonderful Life.
Also shoutout to my brother for climbing on top of the roof to try to see that Christmas star phenomenon thingy.
Pic I took at 2 AM, staying up super late and laughing with my brother while watching him play Zelda games and playing music and cracking jokes.
Then we discovered Super Smash Bros. (of course I played as Zelda and my brother as Link) on the Wii U and dang, is it ever fun. We watched the first Lord of the Rings movie (and hated it) and just took to playing Smash until early hours in the morning. Also, I somehow sat on a Dove chocolate and got chocolate all over the seat of my pants, the couch, and even my sock. :’)
On Christmas Eve, as is tradition, we got holiday treats at Fresh Market, opened one present, and watched A Christmas Story!
Then we stayed up late playing Smash and guys, I am literally dominating because my competitiveness and frustration at losing to my brother drove me to research and find out the best strategies for my character and now everyone thinks I’m OP when I’m literally playing one of the least-used and less powerful characters in the game, I just know how to play her well. VICTORY!!! *demented laughter*
Then came Christmas Day! I blasted my favorite Matthew Parker Christmas song while doing the “are ya winning son?” meme dance and then we opened presents, had Christmas dinner, watched an episode of Psych and the first Star Wars movie (A Phantom Menace, not episode four) and that was a wrap.
On the 28th I did something cool that I’ll tell you about later on for privacy’s sake!
My sister’s birthday was the 29th. We got haircuts, did yard work (wow so celebratory), climbed on the roof, and watched the last two Star Wars prequels (episodes two and three).
My favorite parts of December were laughing with my family (I did a hilarious character interview with my brother), watching movies with them, jamming to music together, and eating all my favorite Christmas foods! I relished in the results of the hard work I’d put in to doing therapy, and the good moments made me once again appreciate the beauty of life.
Some of my favorite music/artists from December:
- Lioness by Beckah Shae
- September by Tauren Wells
- High Voltage (feat. Sam Tinnesz) by Tommee Profitt
- Your Silhouette by Xander Sallows & J.Steph
- Zelda – Song of Storms (EQuiñonez & Uverlaw Remix) (YouTube)
- Song of Storms (Trap Remix) Zelda – Dma Illan (YouTube)
- Say Goodbye (Instrumental Version) by NCS
- Seasons (Instrumental) by NCS
December was by no means perfect because again, therapy is literally the hardest thing I’ve ever done and my health condition is super stubborn and made for some awful days, but bad times are just a couple experiences in a constellation of the others that made up my December. ?
This year, like it did for many others, sucked for me but there were many good moments in the midst of all the bad, and I choose to focus on those!
I think you should, too. ?
How was your 2020, and what do you have planned for 2021?
Trust God with your year, but don’t confuse that with being passive! God can’t direct a parked car, so don’t wait around for 2021 to be a good year — get out and MAKE IT happen because no one else is going to do it for you!
Very cool! 2020 was a tough year for me, but I learned a lot of good things from it, and I’m planning on stepping into 2021 with hope and joy. 🙂
I hope you have a fantastic 2021, full of hope and joy! Thanks for commenting!
You’re welcome! I hope the same for you!!
Thanks so much!
I was gonna read this so fast so I could get first but I ended up savoring it instead ah well XD it was worth it tho bc it made me HAPPY and some bits sad but mostly HAPPY BC YOU GETTING BETTER AND YOU WILL CONTINUE TO YOU GOT THIS FREN >:) ?
Hehe I see mentions of meeeeee faymus *stonks*
Good good post yes now if you will excuse me sib just added a bunch of monster buffs and if I don’t move it I’m going to lose, the audacity >:[
Most crazily, ~Olive
YOU READ ALL 3.5K OH MY GOSH YOU’RE THE G.O.A.T XD Thank you sooo much for reading and for making my 2020 so special ??
GO KICK THEIR BUTTS >:[
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I TRYIN >:D
I hope you have a super amazing 2021!!! I know I’m planning on getting my first book published!! ❤❤❤
Thank you so much, Arein!! ? WOW, best of luck with getting your book published! That’s awesome!
Thank you! 😀
I admire how you were able to pull off this post so well. It seems like you had a lot of bad(and thank you so much for sharing it!), but you also focused on the good? And, most posts I see like that are like, “Oh, my life is perfect…” So, kudos to you. I feel like I did poorly on my 2020 Recap, but whatever.
Woah, mentored by a famous author? Wow. Are you allowed to say who?
I’m so glad you found a treatment that works well for you.
Why were y’all on the roof so much? That makes me worried for you…XD
December truly sounds amazing! I think I have to agree, December rocked.
All of the Star Wars! YES! Although the prequels can go sit in the trash can…not my favorites.
Aw, you didn’t like LOTR? I mean, it was kinda long, but the story was great.
Also, this was a long post. But I enjoyed it.
Aww, thanks so much Diamond! I like being realistic yet hopeful at the same time. XD
Yes! Jerry Jenkins, author of the Left Behind series!
HAHA, I only got on the roof once. I wanted to try it. Cuz fun. XD
Awww but the prequels were so cool! ??
Yeah, I didn’t like it at all. I don’t know why… I guess I’m not a big fantasy fan. The story felt slow to me, and it was all “blah blah blah, ring ring ring”. Why should I care? I wasn’t emotionally connected to the characters because the movie (and the book I tried to read) did a poor job of making me actually care about the characters. There were no personal stakes until wayyyy into the movie, or interpersonal relationships besides Sam and Frodo’s friendship. There was just no reason for me to continue watching; I don’t care about some big bad ring if it’s not going to personally affect the characters, especially if I wasn’t attached to the characters in the first place. It was all large-scale stakes, end of the world type stuff, and not interpersonal stakes where I’m genuinely concerned about what will happen to a character I care about. So basically, “blah blah big bad ring, I do not care.” ? Wow sorry for that long analysis! XD What did you think about it? Did you see the second and third movies too?
Thanks so much for commenting! ?
That’s cool! I think I’ve heard of that series…
The prequels are nice, but the originals are so much better.
I can understand that. Sam was a really great character in the movies though.
Of course!
Ooh really? My brother and I are the opposite, we like the prequels better than the originals ?? What do you think about episodes seven through nine?
Oh yeah, I think Sam is one of my favorite characters! His loyalty to Frodo was so sweet. ‘Twas my favorite part. ?
I like the sequels if I pretend they aren’t canon but I don’t like what they did with Luke Skywalker’s character. Also, I do feel like the characters were less developed.
Agreed.
Oh, this was a beautiful post. I LOVE posts like this (mine which is very similar, is posting tomorrow… Love your’s. 😀 <3 ) I'm so sorry that a lot of your year was so rough, Madi. I think it was hard for a lot of people, but I am SO HAPPY that God brought you through it, in the end. And keep going, Madi!! You can absolutely do this and I am praying for YOU, that 2021 will be absolutely beautiful and bright and a year of joy and new experiences. Here's to the best year you've ever experienced, yet. <3 🙂
Awww, thank you so so much Keziah! This made my day! Here’s to 2021, and I hope it is your best year too! ??
Aww thank you. ??
Looks like you had quite the year! I’m glad your health is improving, and will pray that you continue to feel better!
Thanks so much, Joy! That means so much! Happy New Year!
(P.S. Could you contact me via my contact page?? I have a question. 🙂 )
You bet!
I enjoyed reading this, and I’m glad you posted it. Your short but slightly grown out hair is adorable by the way ??
Aww thanks so much Weez! Haha, thank you XD
Ooh this was fun to read! Your posts are always awesome (: I had an okay year but am really, really looking forward to 2021 because I *might* finish the WIP I’ve been writing for 7 years (yep.) and also COLLEGE! I am so excited for college it’s not even funny XD
Aww thanks so much, Maya! ? GEEEEZ, that’s amazing! I’ve been working on my WIP for almost five years so I know the feeling! ? Best of luck with finishing, and with college! That’s insane! ?
Happy New Year!
I enjoyed reading this. I’m glad that you are starting to feel better!
-Haley
Thank you so so much, Haley!
I’m glad that you had a great year (even through all the struggles). Wishing you a great new year with cookies and ninjas and writing, hehe. You inspire me, love ❤
Aww, thank you so much, Germaine! I hope you’ve had an amazing ’21 so far! <3
Hi Madi! I nominated you for the Mystery Blogger Award, if you would like to do it!
https://mygoldenshire.wordpress.com/2021/01/04/mystery-blogger-award/
I’m honored, Arein!
Eeeeeeeppp, this is the funnest post ever! I absolutely loved reading about your year and I am so very proud of you and your therapy! <3 <3 <3 You're the bestest ever and are so inspiring!
And I'm going to take all these songs from this post and make an epic playlist! 😀 😀
But whaaaaattt, Carmen Justice deleted Poco a Poco? I loved that 🙁
AWWW, thank you so much Livy! Your comments always make me happy! HUGS! <3 <3 <3
I know right?! I loved that song! 🙁
I read this when it came out but go so busy so I couldn’t comment sooner!!!! 🙂 Been praying for you and your family! ~Vicky
Thank you so much, Vicky! I hope you’ve had an epic year so far!
woooaaah HOW do you even remember all of this, like your songs and everything great that happened, that is crazzyyy. Can we trade memory abilities?! I’ve been dying to watch Descendants 3 since last year and I still haven’t done it (rest in peace Cameron, I loved him), but i hope 2021 will be just as epic (or better) for you! Cheers!
HAHAH I spend way too much time on self-reflection, I don’t wanna forget any good moments XD Descendants 3 was cool, I hope you get a chance to watch it! I hope you have an amazing 2021 as well, and thanks so much for commetning! <3